Thursday, August 19, 2010

Day 288: hints of happiness.

Today when I stepped out onto my front steps, the air was unexpectedly warm. Instead of the chilly, grey and wet I have been greeted with most mornings recently, a beautiful Sydney sunshiny day looked set to unfold. At work there was minimal agro, and my lunchtime was adorned with the presence of my Aunty Chris, a classy, cool and gorgeous lady who gives us the cuddles and caring interest our Mum would if she was still here, and who is truly a pleasure to be around. My little bro came to lunch too, and we had a very nice time. And then my afternoon passed pleasantly without any undue stress. And as I was walking home, listening to the new songs I had bought on iTunes, I just thought, why the hell am I freaking out all the time about stuff? Why am I so hell bent on being better and better all the time? Why am I always looking for a better place to be? It's true that there are things I would like to do with my life. It's true there are people I want to meet. It's true that I don't want to stay in the same spot my whole life without moving forward. It's also true that I don't want to disappoint you guys by not achieving anything I set out to do in this insane little year of mine. But from what I can tell so far, life isn't going to let me do anything until the time it's going to let me do it, so I might as well calm down and enjoy things a little bit more. I will keep on keeping on, I will not move my eyes from the prize, but I will carry out my missions in a way and at a pace that ultimately makes me happy. Relax darling, have a good time. Otherwise, really, what on earth is the point?

1 comment:

  1. I've been following your blog - it's a great read, by the way.

    This post came at a spooky moment for me - I had a similar epiphiny this morning. Working for and wanting stuff is all well and good, but surely the ultimate point is to be happy. I should focus more (or at least, concurrently) on being happy now - as well as ways to increase future happiness.